Welcome to telodelic. My name is Diana and I want to support you in your journey of becoming who you are.

The past years have seen an upsurge in popularity of psychedelic drugs. Some people are interested in psychedelics and want to find out what these compounds can do for them. New research is investigating whether psilocybin, MDMA and LSD, all of which closely resemble serotonin and bind to serotonin receptors in the brain, might help in trauma recovery. This research is still ongoing and so far only accessible to participants in trials. Some people, stemmed hopeful by the intermediate results of the research, decide to “go underground”. That could be you.

Maybe you found yourself a trip sitter, shaman or counselor who sat by your side. You could have tripped with a good friend or maybe you ventured alone.

So now what?

  • You may have come back to the world exactly as you left it, which may be a disappointment since you had high hopes for immediate change.
  • The experience might have been more intense than you anticipated, perhaps even frightening at times.
  • The experience might not have given you the answers you were looking for or none at all.
  • You may be hesitant to talk about the experience with others or you may have tried but found that others did not respond as you had hoped.

Much has been written about psychedelics that I won’t repeat here. The long and the short of it is this: These compounds (psilocybin, MDMA and LSD) closely resemble serotonin and bind to serotonin receptors in the brain. However, since they are not identical to serotonin but differ slightly, this causes the uncommon experience we call a “trip”. An effect of psychedelics is that all areas of the brain are temporarily hyperconnected. Signals that normally would have been filtered, now make it through. This is what can make people on psychedelics so sensitive to the moods of people around them. What you experienced during your trip came from your own senses, your brain and your nervous system’s communication with itself, amplified.

If you went into the experience with a question or intention, there’s a chance the question seems unanswered, the intention unfulfilled. You may have seen incredible things but come back without that which you’d hoped: answers, solutions, instructions. That’s because, basically, the nervous system can’t speak, read or write. Only a small part of your brain can do that. So if there were messages from you to yourself in there, answers to questions or solutions to problems, you most likely received them in a symbolic form, like dreams. It may take a while to figure out.

You may have wanted to jump straight from the psychedelic trip to making changes in your life. If no clear answers have presented themselves on how to do this, then your nervous system might have had other things to tell you than what you expected to hear. Figuring out the messages from you to you may require some serendipity. You never know exactly how or when it all starts to make sense. I’d like to encourage you to keep searching. If there’s one truth about searchers, it is that if you keep searching you will inevitably find.