Suppose God made us such that we could only do what was right? Could there be multiple options that would both be equally right? Is such a thing possible, in life? I don’t think so. There are always multiple axes along which you can lay your choices, one of them being “good for me today” the other being “good for me tomorrow”. But then, there’s also “bad for me today/tomorrow”. So maybe with choices comes the option of getting it wrong. God gave us a choice. Do what he said or defy his orders. And by doing so, we are free to choose in any domain. Maybe the devil advocated for our free will even: “Hey, you can’t keep them as puppets who will always do exactly what you say. Where’s the fun in that? They need to be their own persons. Cut the strings.”
So God let go of us. Like a parent who trusts that innate in any child is the desire to live to the best of their ability. He’s still there. But he’s not interfering. Because that would make us his puppets again. As soon as he would take the steering wheel, you’d cease to exist as a separate person from God. You’d disappear, like a handful of water in the ocean. And so necessarily, God has to let go. You can ask for insight or advice. But it’s all up to you. You’re not obligated to do so, or to follow whatever intuition you’re given. It’s an act of faith on God’s part, really. To believe that somehow, it’s all worth not intervening. To trust that in the end, it will all work out. That, when looking at the bottom line, a life set fully free is worth more than a life controlled, compelled to do whatever God thinks is best. That choosing good of your own free will is worth much more than being forced to. Even if it means the ability to choose otherwise.
You thought your faith was being tested? What about His faith? And despite all that happens, God has chosen to have faith. And apparently chooses to have faith every single day. I can’t imagine how much strength, willpower and devotion that takes.
So, by realizing that God has chosen to sustain his faith in humanity, come what may, makes it easier for me to have faith in the context of my little tiny life over here. (Not easy. Easier.)